Misteri yang Ku Nikmati

Aku selalu belajar untuk tetap menjejak tanah,
meskipun anganku telah melambung tinggi ke angkasa luas,
Karena aku tahu..
Kastil yang kokoh pun akan hancur jika ia telah melupakan tempatnya berpijak.

Berkali-kali aku hampir gila hanya karena keroposnya sang dinding kastil,
Membuatku membatalkan semua perjanjian damai terhadap hujan air mata,
dan membiarkan perang yang menghancurkan segalanya

Aku bersumpah untuk mengakhiri semua lelucon konyol mengenai kastil dan dinding keroposnya,
mencoba untuk terjun bebas menyelami keanggunan hidup yang didamba orang, katanya

tapi nyatanya nihil!
Aku tak bisa bertahan lebih lama,
hidup dengan batasan adalah takdirku

Beginilah yang terjadi saat aku mengenalmu,
sama seperti dulu
tak pernah ada bedanya

Yang terjadi padaku, adalah misteri yang ku nikmati
Dimana saat aku sadar sepenuhnnya untuk tidak menebar pupuk di atas Asa
namun ia tumbuh menjalar cepat dan sangat liar

Kau tahu, kau mirip sekali dengan ilalang
Muncul tak terduga di antara tanah kosong yang terabaikan
yang merefleksikan diriku, yang sendiri kesepian

dan, kau sungguh tak ada bedanya dengan ilalang
Yang kehadirannya, memberikan kehidupan di lengangnya sang lapang
mendatangkan kedamaian dalam sepinya hatiku


kau bagaikan ilalang,
pengganggu dan liar,
namun mempesonakan
menciptakan harmoni merdu
sebuah keindahan tiada banding

Author's note : oke, ini sungguh menggantung.. bukan ending yang kuharapkan dari script yang ku bayangkan. entahlah, aku masih merasa kurang puas dan tak tersampaikan -____- but, yeah keep reading :p

(ghaniem - 20/08/2012)

Last Moment Committee 24th FORIENT

Having a last period become the committee of a year event of FORMASI, was totally hectic and messy. Everything has been well-prepared indeedly for a month before! Yet, one day and few hours before the day, everything gonna be crumble-down! Our guest star suddenly cancel the agreement because of sickness, no car to carry lots of devotion, no camera to document the moment and hell-no! we also get the trouble about the food! This is totally messy condition! Yet, since we always got this condition, we could make a strong committee bonding and make it in the end!

We could serve almost 40 children for social devotion, our last event for 24th forient and give a happiness toward those innocent children. Happily, the children got lots of fun games and also mini learning which is trained by Wanita Tangguh - Nony Wahyuningtiyas and Athaya Febriantyo Purnomo - as the youngest doctor student. Lastly, we also have Buka Bersama Together with those children who live at hinterland of Boro Gragal village, Karangploso, Batu.

SODEV dan SOTR FORMASI 2012

Move to the next day, HRD create new inovasion event that is Sahur On the Road replacing their habitual event every month which just for fun and star of the month. We are all go to the junction of Alun-Alun kota malang and Pasar Besar, giving "Sahur" to people who sleep poorly in front of the shops. In the end, HRD launch the Star of Month which is championed by FEDS who got much achievement even realizing their vision to upgrade FEDS internationally. Yey, congratulation! Happy Ramadhan everyone!

Athaya as Representative of FEDS with Chairperson Kak Arum

Author's Note : Well, sound like my blog looks like FORMASI's, hahaha. No! It was mine! I just totally lost the way I write, and I get no inspiration to do. Yet, I do want to write something for my blog since I leave it for long time :P well, hope you like it then, reader :)

tons of love for everyone who read jejak-jejak tulisan saya :)

ah ya, this is my new tumblr, if you wanna see otherside of jejak tulisan saya.. http://fatimahghaniem.tumblr.com

(ghaniem 31/7/2012)

JOVED and ME, what's happened?

How's your fasting day guys? Hopefully you are keeping your fre-spirit to do it since Ramadhan always become a best month for us :)

I don't exactly know how to start my story, it seems like too long I leave my blog, so if you feel strange to read it or even realize how different the language I use, yes. that's true! I also feel it :)

This month is totally a busy month for me, but yeah.. worth it! Going on Purwokerto for JOVED XVI UNSOED, it really helps me to collect a great moment with my friends! 

LOGO JOVED 2012

Starting with the long journey which had made me freaking tired for half day sitting and sleeping on the bus, I still need to continue the day with an accreditation in the afternoon after we arrive and check-in at Hotel Horison. Yes, Adjudicator accreditation with my partner, Leiditya Naristi. 

Precious time for 6 Days at purwokerto, we debate, we adjudicate and indeed we play around! Even if Purwokerto seems like so calm and quiet, we do enjoy BEBEK dan SAMBAL IJO in front of Hotel Horison!! 

Connecting to the competition, we surely proud to have UB A (Kak Dungga, Ope, Queen) as Octofinal and UB B (Kak Arum, Fahri, and Adit) as Quarterfinal. Besides, Nadya also break as an adjudicator! 

So, how about me? I got B in the Initial Assessment, but in the end after 5 round of JOVED.. it decrease into C, hahaha. I know and realize how bad I am on 3-4 round assessment to my chair :p Yet, regardless the competition, honestly it was totally satisfying tabulation :)

Finally, in the end I also want to congratulate UB and FORMASI, as HOST Java Overland Inter-Varsities English Debate XVII at 2013! Welcome to Malang, Debaters!

LOGO JOVED 2013

Author's note : simply, because I miss the moments there! :)

(ghaniem - 31/07/2012)

Long Journey of MTD

            Since I have 2 days to spend for English Camp in Villa Primavera, Batu, honestly I think this year I would skip Malang Tempoe Doeloe after three years I have come there. Yet, the demand from the freshman help me not to make it. Having a remain pain after doing a lot of activities in the Villa, we go together in Jalan Ijen for only several hours then buying some Gulali, Kerupuk Petis, Es Gandul, and so on. Not too bad, but surely I see MTD is not quite as good as previous years ago. How come? I don't know exactly how to judge, whether the quality of the committee or not, but what I can guess.. is actually people get bored even become not interested again because of a bunch of human make long traffic and move slowly. Yet, for me also.. MTD always become one of the effective way to attract people even visitor from other city to remember and go back to the long journey of the history of Malang itself.

(ghaniem - 27/05/2012)

Drama Project

All those memories remind me to the greatest moment we ever made. Having a togetherness in the class is nothing without practicing the rest of the first semester to give the best performance of drama class. Not to mention the song of differences emerged the conflict. That's a common thing! Its complication lit the fire of diversity which trigger our motivation. We have those effort, desire and happiness that brought us not to be tired in shouting our identity. The judges and audiences could know how big our interest to give the best performance that is the reason why the Best Costume of Performance Class 2010 could be gained by us. That day, we believed achieving glory might be the thing that we wanted, but we also agreed that togetherness was irreplaceable. Somehow this present day is really different with the past, but that's not the point! On how the moment we had ever spent is always stayed in the part of my life.. having a good day!

(ghaniem - 29/04/2012)

Pengharapan Terakhir

 Aku telah lama melupakan semua tentangmu

Akupun telah lama tak pernah mengungkit dirimu

Bahkan hingga detik waktu kita mungkin bisa bertemu

Kenyataannya.. Aku takut berharap akan kehadiranmu

Aku takut bayang masa lalu,

Dan.. memang aku bersyukur akan hari itu,

yang menyelamatkanku dari lubang ketidak-warasan


Aku terselamatkan oleh harapan yang tak ku pupuki

Sehingga tak dapat tumbuh tinggi

Aku tak terpuruk meski tak melihat wujudmu,

Karena ku tahu kau tak hadir

Namun yang terjadi..
Semua orang melihat kehadiranmu

Semua orang mendengar kabarmu

Lalu kenapa aku tidak?

Padahal, aku berada dekat denganmu

Inikah takdir?

Aku hanya terdiam

Bisu dalam batas waktu yang tak tentu

Lalu pecahlah kongsi persekutuan otak dan hati

Air mata sialan ini.. dengan seenaknya meruntuhkan istana kekuatan yang telah kubangun bertahun-tahun lamanya 

Kini, aku benar-benar jatuh dalam lubang ketidak-warasan yang tak berdasar

Mengais-ngais berita tentangmu lebih jauh

Semakin hari semakin menggerogoti saraf otak

Parah ? Sangat
Gila ? Mungkin

Hanya setahun lagi
Dan aku takkan bisa melihatnya meski dalam bayang saja

Dalam pengharapanku yang terakhir ini

Kumohon.. izinkan aku melihatnya, sebentar saja

Sebelum ia benar-benar pergi

Ke tempat yang paling jauh dan takkan mampu kugapai lagi

Author Note : Even people said he canceled or postponed his plan to go abroad, I still never meet him. Ironic!

(ghaniem - 23/09/2009)

Salahkah?

Aku kayak orang bodoh

Terbengong dalam dasar hati yang terdalam,
dan melapisinya dengan senyum tolol, 
mendengar berita tentang dia, 
yang jauh berkelana dalam bayang masa lalu

Aku jadi orang paling tolol
Saat kutahu kehadirannya yang begitu dekat, 

bahkan tak terpisahkan lagi oleh bentangan jarak dan waktu, 

tak ku rasakan sedikitpun walau hanya bayang yang paling semu sekalipun


Aku menyesalinya, menyesali kehadirannmu yang tak kuraba

Menyesali kehadiranmu yang tak kau surati

Salahkah aku yang menyesalinya?


Mungkin, tuhan punya jalan lain

Mungkin, tuhan punya cara lain

Mungkin, mungkin,, mungkin..

Hingga tak mampu ku hitung kemungkinan itu

Aku lelah berprasangka

Aku letih mengharap

Salahkah bila aku putus harapan?


Lalu, lakuku harus apa?

Mencari tahu keberadaanmu bukan hakku

Mengetahui kabarmu bukan urusanku

Tapi, aku.. 

aku sekedar ingin menengokmu barang sekilas saja

Salahkah?

(ghaniem - 22/09/2009)